A lad living in a world of expectations. Well, I don’t how to start about introducing myself aside from stating my name, age and address due to the fact that I do not decide for myself. Joshua, seventeen, from Philippines. So awkward. I’ll just be stating things that are coming randomly from my mind as I analyze myself.
Everyday I am trying to be one of the crowd. Trying to be adaptive as much as I can. A little hypocrite maybe? I just want to be compatible with anybody and avoid fights if there’ll be. I’m not a coward. I’m just trying to live in quiet and safe.
I’ve been this since I’ve socialize. I do have lot of things don’t want to happen such as being alone in the eyes of other beings. I don’t want to be pitied upon just because of that. So I socialized to avoid such criticisms. But that much show have been given by I. I’ve met prestigious people. I don’t know what had happened but I just became their company. They laugh, I smile. They talk, I whisper. That was that until time passes by and I’ve been a part of those guys superb pranks. Those pranks really makes me smile as I recall them. Reminiscing really is fun don’t you think? Specially if you have so much ridiculously funny memories. They laugh, I laugh. They shout, I scream. If they roll on the floor laughing, don’t expect me to do the same for I’ll be throwing things on them and laugh harder. Laughter sure makes me forget things easier. Now they are my best friends. And I do believe that they will ever be. :D
I’m a serious but romantic lad who is trying to be in favor with anybody. It’s much more comfortable to say things to others if you know you’re on the same side, right? So I’m trying to be alike with anyone I talk to and forge some bonds and be called as a friend by them. It’s not that bad since I do appreciate them somehow and later on be friends to them as well. Something I do learn as I tag along with everyone is to return favors. They do appreciate me, I think, and that feels great. It puts up such happiness in me due to the fact that I see my self as a loner finding something worthy to spend my existence. I’m a bit weird you see? :D But despite of that, I did have lots of friends. :) Being hypocrite isn’t that bad at all. I was able to use it to find who I want to be as me and who are the people I wanted to be with. Being nice to be compatible with everyone is a good thing. Now I ain’t doing this because I don’t want to be seen alone but rather because it can make me happy.
I don’t know when,who and why should I call someone as my friend. Or maybe cause I do look everyone as a friend? I really don’t know. It’s just that I do appreciate everyone’s ideas, words, thoughts, and smile. I do think that smiles are the most precious response that I could ever have so I do appreciate that the most. By the way, do you think too much appreciation can make you so vulnerable? I do think so.
I do love listening to songs with such lovely music and message. Songs can express feelings and thoughts, but more importantly, I do find songs as an entity. Specially songs meant for broken hearts. There might be an occurrence that I could deal with such being whose heart is broken, maybe I could put a smile on her face somehow.
That’s all I can say. Thanks for reading :) Please tell what you think of me now? :D